#finally living up to my name lol

[cornfieldsrambles]

oh he still believes this. 100% still thinks he was and is an illness and/or a burden. Virgil lowkey hates himself. like we can all joke about the scene with him whipping out the miles-long list of regrets bc yeah it’s funny but like. taking it seriously. he does Not like himself. the final thing on that list was literally HIS EXISTENCE.

he utterly despises the person he used to be, that’s for sure. he’s doing everything he can to distance himself from his former status as a ‘dark side’, from his open hostility to Janus, his old friend and the living reminder of who he used to be (which is its own can of worms), to him constantly second-guessing and discrediting himself (“I’m not exactly a beacon of truth”; “did I screw everything up?” etc.), and this was already becoming A Problem even right after Accepting Anxiety when he’d supposedly learned this lesson already. the constant stream of self-deprecating jokes aren’t exactly a good sign.

Virgil is still convinced that pre-AA him was a blight on the rest of the sides and he needs to constantly prove that he’s grown, he’s changed, he’s not that person anymore (notice in the Phases end card when Janus shows up to bother him, Virgil brings up how much he’s grown with almost no prompting). and a part of him doesn’t even believe it.

(his response to being told that the other three main sides all love him, are proud of how far he’s come and couldn’t function without him is “I guess it’s nice to know they think they feel that way”. like COME ON)

the others can congratulate him on how far he’s come until the end of time, but until he stops believing that the person he used to be was evil, until the ‘dark sides’ label is fully deconstructed for what it is, until the iron-clad moral compass held by the likes of Patton and Roman (which definitely contributed to Virgil’s perception of himself) is taken down… this problem will only get worse.

Hihi, remember how in DWIT Virgil told Remus that he thought he was a terrible disease? Probably because he made Thomas uncomfortable?

What stops Virgil from having the same mindset pre AA? What if the reason he put on a dark persona in the first place was because he saw himself as the villain, as the terrible illness?

After all, he made Thomas uncomfortable as well, that's his job!

Oh, and what stops him from believing it in the future? Especially now that he doesn't have Patton's support, he's lost his "dark side friends" and Thomas seems to be spiralling down a dangerous road because of him and Roman?

Hihi!

[secretsimpleness]

Fan service.

Shepard (custom), Liara / Mass Effect (c) Bioware

[akkivee]

ALSO??????? WHAT TF DO YOU MEAN THEY UPDATED GENTAROS CATCHPRASE??????

AND THAT THEY CHANGED A LINE IN ARB WHERE HE REFERENCED THAT OLD CATCHPRASE INTO SOMETHING NEW THAT EXPRESSES HIS WILL TO CONTINUE ON WITH THE LIE??????

AND THAT WILL IN OF ITSELF WAS REFERENCED THIS WHOLE TIME IN HIS NEW SOLO WITH HOW THE POEM LITERALLY ENDS WITH HIM SAYING HE WILL CONTINUE TO LIE??????

[hanzajesthanza]

dandelion is indeed the worst but if he’s not present in the next book i would legitimately be sorrowful as the whole thing will become a slog . you basically cannot have the “short stories” era-of-the-timeline iteration of geralt without dandelion, it would be like eating unbuttered bread.

though it’s not like season of storms did them dirty, i wasn’t disappointed with it (… with regards to them), but since it’s literally been over 20 years since the saga was finished i’m trying to prepare for any potential reality

[acourtofquestions]

"Live, Fenrys," said Aelin.

"Live, Manon," said Asterin.

"Live, Aelin," said Elide.

"Live."

[solradguy]

Tbh Dirge of Cerberus' actual gameplay isn't as bad as I was expecting it to be, like I'm almost 4 missions in and I still haven't died, but the gameplay getting interrupted every 5 minutes by some kind of micro cutscene is driving me up the wall. Did they really have to stop the action just to show a common model NPC walking out of scene. Was that 100% necessary

[deepwoundsandfadedscars]

The Person of Interest, previously known as "The Guy" before finding out they are also genderqueer and uses they/them exclusively, just sent me a voice message and the nerves are nerving, why am i nervous to open a voice message 🙃

[yvenno]

guys what if i re read harry potter in its entirety and wrote that one fic i've always had in mind about a sirius black's daughter oc. what if i actually did it

[aeide-thea]

poäng appreciation post 💛

[alsaurus-loves-dean]

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[be-the-glenn-to-my-maggie]

Real quick PSA for the followers, just to make sure my positions are clear on some issues and to make sure I am not causing any unintentional harm (that devolved into a minor hiatus):

-If I'm intending to talk about something specific, I'll mention it, I promise.

-I do be forgetting that you all recognize me on both my A03 and my tumblr. It is surprising to me every time. I tend to be vERY flippant on here, especially in my tags. I think we have reached a point where I should be more careful lol. I am not used to having an actual effect, so if I have an effect you don't appreciate, or I say something hurtful, please please bring it up to me! Dms, anon, replies; idc, I'm always down for a conversation.

-I am not in the business of apologies I do not mean, and I certainly do not back down from my opinions, I think that's been fairly clear. So, if I apologize it's because I mean it, and that won't change.

-I make a lot of posts that are critical of fandom culture in a lot of different fandoms, and culture around specific characters as well. I want it to be very clear that unless I am directly interacting with another user, then the criticism should never surround anyone specific. I never want to direct hate ever, unless I'm tagging.

-If there are questions about the appropriateness of my headcanon posts in response to asks, that can be changed. I would really hate to be making my very small community uncomfortable. I had thought I was fairly clear on the blogs boundaries and what I think is appropriate, but perhaps I haven't been careful enough. Please feel free to address issues with me, or to block me. That is always an option of course.

Uh, that being said, I might take a couple days. I have used this blog for fun and friends since 2015, it's not my first time fucking up nor will it be the last. But, it's upsetting to me that my blog might be harmful to some (who I hadn't intended it to be harmful to, it's always been an active warzone for irredeemable character excusers lol, since 2015). The queue will go on as usual but no new posts for a bit while I figure out if things need to change. I'll respond to DMs tho, probably, bc I'm obsessed with my mutuals.

[whump-it-like-its-hot]

Heading to school now to finalize my decision to retake the year. Set your bets NOW on whether I’ll start crying again, completely shut down and will be unable to speak, or the third, secret option! (Not even I know what the third secret option is yet, but we’ll see!)

[cyanspica]

Please please please...chapter 11 when??? I just finished a re-read and it's fucking killing me. I think you mentioned that it's written? and just thinking about it out in the world but not in my eyeballs is overwhelming. I neeeeeeeed it. I'm going to go leave a proper comment on the fic but just had to come here first.

blame @my-deer-friend for taking up all my time. straight to jail.

so yes chapter 11 is finished lol and it IS about time for our bi yearly update… hm….

[eyivibyemi]

✧ I won’t really write descriptions for these, but see original post tags for explanation/commentary on the song snippet ✧

[apathyfairy]

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[nerdwithapencilagain]

Fantasy traveling merchant guy I came up with aeons ago

unedited version under the cut ig